I had stopped gardening almost a year now.
I wished I had good reasons to say that I stopped gardening - regardless of the reasons - the main culprit is my mood swing of which had gave a dead-blow on my garden plants.
Most of the exotic ones needed constant care and feeding, of which I had failed miserably - and others succumb badly as I didn't reset them (pruning and planting)
And so the ones that made it are the hardy ones - barely made it...
Dumcanes and some ariods - these survived my rainforest.
Together with my garden - the passion for blogging died with me.
I suddenly realised that I had now have the feeling that I'm more a OCD
Collecting junk rather than throwing them away.
I now have more empty pots, pieces of stuff here and there..
Clearly not in the mood to reset or clear any of them.
My front porch is in disaster - everything overgrown with weeds and infested with grasshoppers.
And the moment I touch something - it decides to rain,
I lost all my maiden hair fern as cats started to poo on my plants
Some got knocked over and they didn't recover from shock - now dead.
I still in the feeling of lethargy and "fed-up" but I know I need to start to get my butt moving back in gardening.
Most of my flowering plants are dead.
So are the orchids and begonias.
Except for these few pockets of survivors
They managed to rough out the storm.
I lost a couple of Earthstar species - these are the standing living ones.
Hopefully - there is an antidote to snap of my laziness and get myself back into the mood of gardening.
Perhaps it must be the lack of inspiration or something terribly I must be lacking...
Hopefully I get it soon..
I'm just feeling so blue and down with my garden.